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 I have a crush on  my one coworker. At first I was confused in regards to how I was feeling, I knew it was something but I couldn't pinpoint the emotion- then it dawned on me, I have a crush on her. She's a butch-looking woman with a feminine babyface, starts her shift after mine ends. I don't know if she's gay or not, I can't ask. It almost felt comforting to know that I have feelings for someone. Immediately I thought "ok, Im not gonna do what I did like all the other times" in regards to being obsessive and clingy. No, instead I avoid her like the plague. I feel bad for avoiding her, but I know she would never feel the same way about me. She's polite and stuff but we never chatted-chatted. I try to ask questions to stir up a convo but my speech impediment makes everything awkward and I can't tell how she feels. I hate myself, man. She even has a green backpack similar to mine. I wish we could be friends, she probably thinks Im weird. I just love her a lot, she's so cute and I want to get to know her. I can't though and that hurts. Two more days where I work between second and third shift, then after that I mainly work third shift. I wish I knew what to say to people. I wish I knew how to handle these things. Every time I genuinely care about someone, I run away from them and hide. I avoid confrontation. Im too scared.